alrights.this whole week damn pei cek alr! damnit.i still have ss sbq and the effing maths thingy to do.such a waste of time.it's like combining geog yucky stories to maths.wth.ugh.and today, best sia.4 girls waiting for a guy outside school.missed lunch and then gave up.okay, it's a much longer story.maybe i'll blog about it 2ml or sth. i feel sorry for the guy later.honestly.hee.clare's giving me all the dirty job with * and *.and im suppose to get them all together on 15 july during the dance performance.gosh.this is effing irritating. this week totally sucks!!! i'll make next week a better week.i better.okok.let me go figure what to do with my ss and maths.someone is this school has got to do it alr. hahah.oh man, ive stood to this level.shucks..oh wells, CLARE! MATHS QUIZ!-you go girl.i gave up aft 5 mins. =( ss, STUPID PRINTER. there, i feel much better.

I have been on this posting page for the last 30 minutes.just stoning on it.honestly, anne.i was really fine with it.i mean what you said, i was totally alright.i swear.then it wasnt really good.cos that means,she didnt mean much to me anymore. but the more i think about it, it kinda really hurts deep down.okok.let me stop.before i cant stop the tears.oh God, damnit! i'll call you alright.tonight? i dunno. i know you'll be reading this entry.
okok.let me bring the mood up a lil.i just looked forward to this entry cos i was so gonna bloged about ZAC EFRON.but im really not in the mood today.nevertheless, i'll blog about him.haha.alrights.so high school musical was on sunday.OMG, COMEON! ZAC EFRON IS SO DAMN HOT! NOT FORGETTING CUTE, SWEET, TALENTED! i mean.can anyone be ( hot, cute,sweet, talented)-er? gosh! anne and me were like crazy about this.we were practically screaming in the av threatre during HS.hee. it seems so unfair.how can anyone like him be on the planet! it's so unfair! im so gonna watch the encore and tape it ,not forgetting the making of high school musical.it's really fab.haha.we were recalling every one of his scenes! and then we'll go high.over nothing.haha.okok.you're gonna tell me im crazy to call him nothing.but hey, think about it.it's really silly.haha.and to make it more unfair-er, anne's drama cher ACTUALLY TALKED TO HIM ON THE PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG! SOME LUCKY SHIT! and to think he gave the " im not really gonna make a scene here cos im talking to ZAC EFRON" tone.how bitchy! haha. i'll talk. but anne, ha. the moment he says " hi" she'll stone.and then she'll scream.hahhahhah!!! tell me im right.lol.God, im right aint i!! hahhahah. you cant deny that! hee. she's so crazy about him, she started telling everyone to call her " ANNE EFRON" haha.and then she tried my name.but i like hers,honestly (:(:(: oh man!!!l HIS SO HOT!ugh! i cant imagine if she and me watched it together.we'll bring the house down! haha!it's such a heartbreak to see the sad scene! the 1h 50min show just seemed 1/2 hr.anne's drooling.HA! I WANNA WORK ON DCOM! hee.
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okok.babe, you cant blame me for saying she looks like zac efron.COS SHE DOES! their so alike!!!!! they really do.their eyes, smile.omg! IT'S A PHOTOCOPY! have you compared their pictures?!!?! hee. but dont worry, if you're thinking i MIGHT fall for her, two words " GET REAL" haha,youknow im so straight.dont forget ZAC EFRON! haha.but..OMG.you just have to trust me this time.THEIR SUCH LOOK A LIKES!!!! oh man, it almost makes her hot too! hahhahhaha.dont scream.i said almost. (: but i still cant believe she and her and her and she. it so tells me what friends are for!and i thought the years of friendship wont tear down.hey, i guess i was really wrong this time..face it, now it's really " it'll never be the same again" kinda thing.which effing sucks! ok.i shall snap out of it.i just feel it's pathetic to feel bad over something she doesnt even know she has done. the more i avoid her and HER, the more THEY appears right infront of me.which is really disappointing. oh well, she's still a "yucks" for me. hee. (: THANKS BODYGUARD.OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT.( i think you'll get it better if i said ANNE EFRON) HA!despo!hahha.but thanks. (:

FINAL NIGHTMARE-DONE LIST:
eng -vocab?
-compre
maths -amaths corrections
-wksht(haven got)
-emaths portal (trigo and coordinate geom) -THANKS CLARE! <3
phyics-quizzes -THANKS BABY!<3
bio-structured essay + quizzes
hist -corrections +PBL+league
ss -corrections
chi -compre

something ive put together. (:
(*no tittle though)

Hey, im writing to you
Not to tell you that im living this
Living it well enough
Only to ask how's everything tonight
It's been a long hard road
The days you werent here
Im gonna say it's not okay
But im gonna be alright

So i look between these sinful walls
And find im standing there
Alone again
So im standing under the rain
Wishing for your presence
Waiting for the footsteps
The ones i used to hear

Stuck in the middle
Reality pulls me back
The look of this life
Gave the confidence away
Once again
Ive met this long forgotten world
And tears ive once forgotten
Nothing's what it seems
When you live inside the dream

And sometimes i forget
Yea and this time i'll admit
That i miss you
Said i miss you
I need you here once again
I need to hear the words
You used to say
I need to see once again
That it's gonna be okay
Im weak inside
Without you
By my side

So i look between thses sinful walls
And find im standing here
Alone again
So im standing under the rain
Wishing for your presence
Waiting for the footsteps
The ones i used to hear

And sometimes i forget
Yea and this time i'll admit
That i miss you
Said i miss you
It's been a long hard road
The days you werent here
Im not gonna say it's okay
But im gonna be alright

Hey im writing to you
Not to tell you that im living this
Living it well enough
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a random one i guess. (:
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IM BACK. honestly, i have no idea if that's good or bad. =X oh wells, im taking it as it is.and it's going fine. (: first thing's first.
Clare: WOMAN! i need updates.what is going on.come on, you know how much i lagged! Hee.and you should be VERY glad those two idiot guys dinn sms me during my happy 6 days off. or else i'll be paying overseas bills for them! like im not paying enough for the smses i HAD to send overseas! p.s God must have heard my prays.ahah. and i dont really fancy having anything to do with them either.one is f-ing irritating and the other is simply hopeless.
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alrights.so finally im back.malaysia.i practically spend 21 hrs in the car.going to KL then to penang then to melaka and back to spore.did some catching up though.especially on SLEEP. Hee. oh, malaysia really made me realised how i missed home.i wasnt home sick btw. i just miss the cozy sofas, big screen tv with PLENTY of channels to flip through, fridges full of unhealthy junk and health wrecking drinks.unlimited access to internet.oh man, i love home. (:(:(: i mean i got so desperate looking for something to watch on the tv, i practically flipped through all the 40 channels at least 10 times and then decided on a malay series show that i have completely no idea what's going on.i just understood a bit.YES! HOW PATHETIC. make me miss my 24/7 mtv. =X and then my sis decided to join in.so sue me, i ran out of vcds and dvds to watch with my dvd player.before i knew it, i got bloody desperate.I DID HOMEWORK! haha! amazing isnt it? gessh.well, some homework i guess.better than nothing. 90% of the time was chatting with my sis about movies and dates and shopping.haha. once, we made a joke out of something and i laughed so hard, my dad woke up.well, it was kinda in the middle of the night.ahah.(: did my song writing but dinn have much inspiration. 1st day at KL, we did shopping.pretty please with myself.i only bought a bag.besides, my sis bought 2! and wanted to buy a pair of shoes until i had to "drag" her out of the shop afew times before we were back there.haha.and guess who i met at my hotel? gessh! isit sheer "luck" or is God playing a late april fool's joke on me? great.same country, same hotel, same date, same time.what more? ohwells.the next day, off to penang.spent 5hrs on the road and oh yah! 2 hrs trying to find our hotel when we pass by it like a zillion times! (which adds up to 23hrs in the car!*) lesson learnt : never trust my mum's sense of direction! now i know who i take after.hah.penang's shopping are fab! lots of pretty stuff.really sweet too.but i felt bad spending so much of my mum's cash.Hee. the beach there's really great.though it was drizzling most of the days. i dread walking out on the road in penang. the risk of getting knock down by a car before your 10th step 90%. i mean, so we were walking aross the road when the green man was on.this f-ing car dinn f-ing see the RED LIGHT, happily f-ing dash through it.it's tyres was like 2cm from my feet.honestly, i dinn see that coming.it was my mum that pulled me back.my sis's first reaction was " F*CK la!!!" ha! infront of my parents.she's good.hah.and she got away with it.i guess cause in my parent's head, they were swearing like nobody's bussiness either.hah..parents! lol.funnily, i dinn have any reaction.i seriously thought something was wrong with me! maybe lack of sleep or something.whatever. penang's really great besides the point.but i had to wake up every morning like i slept for 3 hrs only with flu, sorethroat, cough and everything in between.i guess it was seoul garden.too much heaty stuff.and look at the pricing you're go WOOT! and wish for a moment, they would move to singapore.Hee..those fried and burnt food really got to me.by the time i was sitting a 7 hrs plus ride to melaka, was having a sore throat. but im fine now. thank God. and for the FIRST time, i remembered something my whole family didnt! and that was where the food court in the shopping centre was! haha.nothing to do with "cause it's food, caroline!" mind you.(:(:(: i just..remembered! ha. we dinn really care much then, all the cleaning of our apartment in the hotel, really burn our enegry.although i must say it's really cool to have a room in the hotel, yours. it's like the hotel's home in melaka.just that i hate all the cleaning.not that i hardly do anything.but i do occasionally...help.haha. (:(: i guess, it's been great out there.and im back..HERE.
`missed you much. (:
The almost-forgotten nightmare:
eng-vocab (well, i got my sis's book)
chi-compre
hist-MYE corrections + PBL + league sth sth
ss-MYE corrections
maths-trigo and coordinate geom
YUCKS =X

haizx.what is freaking wrong. i hate when this happens.i dread it.so great.like my day yesterday wasnt bad enough.everything had to just get worse right.so great.my closest friends since pri what? 3? starts to scatter.and just ugh.nevertheless, i said i wasnt gonna give up on the 4 of us.and i wont.so dont push it.please..i really need you guys there.
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heyy.im sorry what become of the two of us.im asking for this time out.hoping that it'll really work on the both of us.this time.i dont know what i should really say here.but somehow,i just dont feel the same about us anymore.it's just different. haizx. just really really give me some time to get this all straight alrights.
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BABE! i miss ya UBER LOTS! man, i miss all your crap! welcome back btw. (:(:(:

EVERYTHING'S NOT WORKING OUT!
ugh. fcuk it.come one people! let's make this work again. today's another wasted day.this will just go on and on, and you guys know it! come one.dont just fcuking sit there.miracles dont work unless you work them. it's all in our hands. we can make this work.but i need you guys.i cant fcuking do this ALONE.im already losing half of it.i dont want to lose the other half of it.im not giving up on you, nor us, nor myself.but im clear im doing this for US.

-just not in the mood NO MORE! ive had almost enough of this

please God, give me an answer for all this.
i need to hang on to this.
i believe i can
ive got the faith that i can
i know i can.

TODAY WAS FAB! (: babe, you ROCK! (:(:(:
alrights.clare and me decided to watch " The Omen" at 10.20am.so she reached bugis (easiest way to get.lol) at 9.37am while i was fashionably late.haha.but timing not so bad la.yupps.so we reached and then bought our tix.at last! i FINALLY convinced clare to watch.i was like so despo till i told her i'll pay for both the tix.if she's scared, we leave.even if it's halfway..and at last! "yes" haha!im so proud of her.haha.her first scary movie. (: serious.the night before, i sweared to stangle her.haha.oh wells.tix were bought.too late for turning back. so we just sat ard.talked about stuff and then we went in.i so cannot choose cinema seats! haha.the movie was damn freaking nice! haha.there were very lil ppl so the place was uber COLD! colder than ice cold! omg.lucky i had my bag on my lap.it kept me much warmer.but lt8,clare was freezing and she's super scared.like really.so she was like hugging on to my arm.squeezing it SO FREAKING TIGHTLY! i couldnt feel my arm no more.and plus.her hand was ICE COLD.so i lent her my bag to cover up her legs.so then i was freezing.but it was alrights i guess.even clare could feel me freezing up.but anyhow, we survived the movie.clare spent 90% of her time looking at the drinks to distract herself.and i spent 90% of the time explaining to her what she missed.lol! it was a sure great experience.lol.the show was nice.(: we had late lunch ( a miracle for clare) and did our stuff and all.had a great time.went broke again.oh wells.man, we're getting super close and im influencing her to my style for clothes,we were even mistaken for being twins in a shop.haha.we bought the same clothes same bag.man, that's cool.haha! time passed super fast,so had to go back too,since clare had uber early curfew.*baby said i should have told him about the cold-ness in the cinema so could send me a sweater! so sweet!! lol.thx.but nvm. (: yupps..so got home and when i was crossing the road,going hm.i seem to look out for cars for other ppl but myself.i took one step.and then i saw the car speeding towards me and i stepped back.and then i look again,no cars.and i took 3 steps.this time, i was one sec close to getting knock down by the speeding motocycle.and i din even see that coming.if he din horn at me.agh.you know how much i hate this feeling.like i want to take that step across the road but so many things just start stopping me from doing so? it's just across the road, to the other side.it made me just totally reflect on us.
*: im not giving up on US.cos if i do,then im no different from the both of them.and seeing you wanting to give up is SUCH AN INSPIRATION for me to keep this hanging.what i really needed was you to help me pull us together.and the last thing i wanted was to see you give up infront of my very own freaking eyes no matter how much u dont want to.i dont want to walk this path alone okay.so im sorry if i wasnt really helping much in the first place.i tried, like how i believed you tried.but believe it or not, up to you.whatever's going to happen to the 4 of us,i have no say in this at all.and neither do you.so you should really stop thinking it's your fault..and the best part is if you start to clump all your troubles together, it's going to be like a stairway to heaven.even the most perfect person faces problems..so can you please try to change this "problem" with the 4 of us to a challenge for the both of us.if im willing to take this,i dont see why you shld hesitate.i did mention i wasnt hurt with what you said.but i need you to know that that is NOT because i dont give a damn to this.it's cause i know you meant it well for us.but this is how it just goes on and on.the circle of misunderstandings.first you said " get la" and "yeah" wasnt some good advice they gave you.yeah if you look at it that way, of course it's shit advice.but ever look on the other side of the field that maybe all they or she tried to do was to spur you on and give you a lil confidence in yourself.girl, if you look at in one side, u have got to look at it the other side.the world is ROUND not square.alrights? so just give US and yourself one more chance. <3 -i believe we can have it good if we want to.
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
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Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
And directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question,But a lesson learned in time
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So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

BEING ANGRY IS PUNISHING YOURSELF FOR THE MISTAKE THE PERSON DID.

oh man.so glad that today's the last time i shall enter the school gates for the holidays!! woot! (: i shall have more than fun. but on second thoughts.if i see him there, im going to puke! im praying he's going to be very busy with the others, to take a peep on what's happening in the room.then i'll have peace. lol. okay.that's kinda mean.haha.but OH WELLS. at least we dont manipulate him the way we use to do when my seniors were still in.90% of the juniors practically WORSHIPS him.

lessthanthree.(:

Today i woke up knowing it's another day
Yesterday was put in the past
And the past is in the past
With the memories of us kept close

What's become of me today
Baby,a stronger soul within
Im the person you made me into

You picked me up and held me close
Making sure i was alright and fine

Something pulled me back
The inner voice within
Turning into what seemed
Like all just a dream
It doesnt make sense
How somethings just dont work out

But baby,
You picked me up and held me close
Making sure i was alright and fine

Tell me today
How some days feels so fcuked up
But yet i had it in,stronger
I guess this is life
Cos life's just is

It's crazy how somethings
Just never work out
Yet i live each day knowing
I could count on you
To make the day a better day

So i try to be perfect
Cause i know you're worth it
Make me believe
You're worth it

Cause lessthanthree
Was what kept us together
Baby, hold me close tonight
Tell me everything's gonna be alright
Cause its what kept us together.

So i try to be perfect
Cause i know you're worth it
Make me believe
You're worth it
Make me believe
Cause you're worth it

alrights.im LEGALLY 15 now.going on 16. (:
ytd:
woke up like 7 plus ( as usual) was saving my batts so i off my hp last nite and then i switch on the sms flood came.nic, you were the first! to think you thought you wasnt the first.haha.you send like at 12.01am? haha.thanks girl. (: got wishes from darl,bird, krystal, li huang, joyce, chel, liwen, shar,deen, clare, theresse,anne,sylvie.i think i may have left out a few others.but THANKS PEEPS. <3<3<3 so planned to meet clare at 10.30am.the smart girl, kept thinking it was 10am.so she reached bugis at 10am.lol.and still want to blame me for "coming half and hour late" yes? lol.yupps.had to babysit my cousin in the morning until her mum came back.so was like 10 mins late after 10.30am.IM RESPONSIBLE! (: i think..haha.alrights.so we did our very usual routine of stuff.haha.then just loiter alr there.dinn bring much cash la.so dinn intend to get much stuff. bought clare's bday present on my bday.haha! kk.. ate lunch..then went to orchard and waited for darl to come. (: intro clare to him and him to clare.lol.then went ard taka and clare was hungry AGAIN and darl have yet to eat his lunch.so we went to find food.and then clare brought us practically everywhere to find something that would satisfy her.haha.FINALLY! she headed to the cashier.haha.then she decided to go into watson.so darl and me waited outside.and this super uber cool thing happened.haha.we asked two different qns at the same time in a row.that's like super cool.haha.okok.aft that walked to cine.darl and clare,so do not look at the road before crossing.at least clare seemed to notice the car faster than you.haha.but that gave me a great fright la.although i din really show much of it.first time i reacted so fast to just stop you.haha.alrights.so cine it was but saw people we din want to see.really dont want to see.so we went out.and then darl suggested we just sat down somewhere and crap.lol.so back to taka and into coffee bean it was.that silence wasnt golden.haha.usually we all have so much to say.then went there and like one quarter of the time, we were silent! i swear that was amazing.haha.and then clare talked to him until she felt like just hitting him with a table.haha! i just sat there and watch the two of them talk back to each other.man, that could just be the drama.haha! so we did have our crap.and trust me, this bday was really really special.cos i got to spend it with the TWO MOST AMAZING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD. <3 and then something happened. omg.girl, do not cry infront of me.i get very easily affected and i will be like at total lost..and then i felt so bad.and then darl felt so bad cos i was like down.and trust me, im not angry with you.im really seriously, NOT angry alrights. (: please please cheer up.seeing you so down,doesnt make me feel any better. i could really just feel the tension then.and i so needed to see that smile on your face.and then this went ard.then clare started feeling bad..but it was quite alrights.no heart feelings! (: so then we took the train and darl and me dropped at bugis again, cos i had to return to my mum's office and he wanted to send me back.made clare report to me when she reached home.haha! then i was sent back. (: so what if ytd wasnt what i expected to happen or wasnt all that perfect.i need the both of you to know, i loved it the way it was.and you two really made that difference in it. THANKS CLARE AND BABY! `LESSTHANTHREE.