Friday, June 29, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 4:56:00 PM
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one week of school has passed
one week of stress is lesser
one week less for prelims
one week less for "o"
one week less with 4/7
the days are not spent by hours but by minutes now. it seems every min counts.
yes. i can do this.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 4:31:00 PM
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alrights. so it's semester 2 already! I plan to study really hard and i will! like, most definitely! no more slacking i reckon. Anyways, i did enjoy my last day of freedom doing stuff like watching tv, swimming and reading " the undomestic goddness". gosh i loved " count to ten" it's a rather thick book but once you start, you probably cant stop. i finished it in two days. what do you think huh! that book's fabulous! Right. Anyways, time to study. At least before that motivation slips away into some wonderland again.
STUDY FOR PRELIMS! PAPERS ARE ALREADY SET! =X
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 5:21:00 PM
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ARGH! so pissed with..myself. over a stupid chem paper. i should really start chucking that aside before i feel suicidal again! so pissyfying! seriously!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 10:09:00 PM
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ive been thinking A LOT lately. maybe holidays aint so healthy after all. yanno? alrights. one thing's true. I MISS MY CCA! I MISS ALL THE NONSENSE PEOPLE! I MISS MY GUITAR!! I MISS THE CRAMPED UP MPR ROOM! I MISS THE HOT AND STUFFY CLASSROOMS!
:( ohwell. i had my good share of fun and tears during cca. Ive never been so proud of being in GE. but now, i truely am(: Anyways, academics bullshit is what i should concentrate on right now. yes. stop reading those goddamn books and stop staring into space. maybe for once caroline, you can actually excel ..better. or however that goes... ARRRk. along that line.
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now that you've given me peace, im really wondering how you are.
Friday, June 15, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 3:04:00 PM
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gosh. ive come to accept the phrase" everything happen for a reason" yea. ive got a reason-to piss me off. i mean since kindergarten , i thought those who go primary must really know it all. when i got to primary school, i got those pri 6es have got it all going. then when im primary, i conclude those sec one must be really cool. and then when im sec one i realise those sec 4 really do know where they wanna go in life and all. and now that im sec 4, i think only adults are wise and knowlegable or sth. i dont even think anyone knows what's going in life.those on their deathbed could really think heaven is paradise and then join the crowd up there and insist, they will do better in their next life. shessh! i mean. how do you live a good and peaceful when everyone who comes your way keep fcuking it up? ugh.. like one moment how great it is and then the next, everything topples and it's coming down your way?
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 9:09:00 AM
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hey peeps. go read "where rainbows end" it's nice! haha. im addicted. will do chem. sometime.. im sure.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 4:35:00 PM
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 8:38:00 AM
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I solemnly conclude that bio is screwed ( i know i know. when was is NOT screwed ) i guess i'll jump to physics until my anti-bio mood is gone or something
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yesterday's tuition was alrights. i know you're in a really bad mood but slamming things wouldnt help! gosh. you have so many ways to piss me off. seriously. then you apologise and ask me to forgive you for **** yah. you clearly now know i have no space in my life for you. if ignoring you is going to help, im going to compeletly ignore your existence. As much as it's so goddamn childish, im fine with it.
p.s you have nice hair though.(haha)oh gosh. this is so out of the point
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 4:46:00 PM
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ok.. i spend my day painting my nails.. gosh. it's taking than i thought to dry. read all my previous entries from my other blog and realised. gosh. i can be so crazy about some ppl! and to think i went through that.. 3,4 times. until i found one i could count now.but what also went poof! and then the current one, yuck!!!!!!!!!! lol. i dont tink anyone will get wad im saying. lol
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 11:52:00 AM
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oh my lord! i just watched 200 pounds beauty!! So freaking touching the last two parts. cried watching it man!! But it as nice. what a way to spend my morning huh.
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 8:45:00 AM
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I remember the times we spent together
All those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New york
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight
I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And you still feel like dreaming
Exactly always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much
Tonight im falling
And i cant get up
I need your loving hands
To come and pick me up
And every night i miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are holding you
Holding you tonight
I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that
Night that just couldnt wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we were playing
All the times we spilled our coffee
And stayed out way too late
I remmeber the times you sat
And told me about your jesus
And how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad
Sometimes not having you here
I sing
Tonight im falling
And i cant get up
I need your loving hands
To come and pick me up
And every night i miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are holding you
Holding you tonight
I sing
Tonight im falling
And i cant get up
I need your loving hands
To come and pick me up
And every night i miss you
Ican just look up
And know the stars are holding you
Holding you tonight
Monday, June 11, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 9:09:00 PM
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so yah. im here
again.this is boring shit man! =X
arr.. I have this sudden terrible feeling. like two good brothers fight because of me. dammit! i didnt know why in the first place it'll end up like that!! although i know it's not directly my fault. but in the way, it still is. sigh! :( i hope they are doing fine now. tomorrow will tell when i face one of them. just so you know, i dont have a good feeling about this.
meanwhile, im bored shit!!
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 4:41:00 PM
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im currently in love with this song. like literally!
i love the shit out of this song!
haha. and currently, im getting really bored. you can tell with the few entries a day going on yanno. Oh well. Biology literally fries my brain cells! it's hot! okay. that's not literally anymore. I sound kinda off now. haha. i cant wait for shopping spree with clare! brought 200 over out that time and didnt spend! now i have double(: ( i think) yayness! clothes! shoes! bags!accessories! SCREAM*!!! cant wait! haha! i remembered i came here to blog about something.. but i kinda got carried away with the shopping, it kinda slipped..err... crap! neverminds. i'll be back when i think of it(:
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 12:39:00 PM
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baby, even now that you're gone. why do you have so much energy to make me realise maybe what ive done wasnt the best thing after all? oh well. Caroline needs to study biology! study study study!woot!
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 7:47:00 PM
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leaving me alone in a house so big is scary. my mind is working over time. and suddenly i realise, i miss your presence. your presence in my life. Remember those movie times. I enjoyed your presence more than the movies. i could stare at you throughout that 2 hours and not get tired. and lying on you seemed like the sweetest thing ever. and no matter what happens, you'll still be there to grab hold of me before i slip and fall. thanks for not letting me fall right through.i miss your hugs and kisses:(
haiyo haiyo! caroline needs to go find sth to do!
oh well. that's like so much for reading my past entries.end up thinking too much. ARR!!
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 5:03:00 PM
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im alone at home. until tomorrow. But for today, it's me and the same four walls. i get so bored, i do silly things. woke up and starting drawing random things. So the papers are all over the floor now. then lie around my sofa watching mtv. After that i actually did biology. but it wasnt long before i find myself eating chocolates before lunch. and then lunch came and i ate the most unhealthy food ever! I ate pizza and fries with ice-cream. chocolate ice-cream. Then i ate chocolate puddy. haha! then i lie on my sofa watch more tv. before i knew it, i was writing another song but it's not complete. Inspiration broke when i started to talk to my new found brother? whatever. yea. then i was listening to my blog song and got really emo. lied on the floor with the air con blowing and stared at the ceiling for 20 minutes.later figured i should go study. did most of biology chapters except 2 horrible ones with lots of info. then ran on my threadmill for 15 minutes non-stop. went to take a bath. and im wondering what to do now..
weird things you do when you're alone at home.
p.s did i mention i lost 1 kg just like that? im like 39kg now. and yah. i need to gain weight. oh wells.
Friday, June 08, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 5:46:00 PM
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It's finally overIt's raining more than ever
Im staring out my window
Pictures of us flashes through my mind
Im helplessly trapped
Between the truth and your lies
It feels so real, but it's nothing more than a dream
And everytime i think of how we used to be
I cant get a hold of you
So maybe it's best to let go
Right before you slam the breaks
and send my heart back to reverse
I find myself buried under the load
Of everyday school life
Just when i've accepted
I'll never see the light again,
You bring me to a place
Where im painfully blinded by the light
I cant get a hold of you
so maybe it's best to let go
Right before you slam the breaks
and send my heart back into reverse
So is this right?
I dont wanna live in your lies again
Now tell me it's just a nightmare
Or just yet another dream
Im over it sooner than i thought
Or is this just another denial?
Even if it's with or without you
I dont need you tripping me
Cause i'll find my way
To climb back up that social ladder
Your badly told lies bring me to the truth
But for now, thanks for making me stronger
and i'll say it again.
yea, thanks for making me stronger
Just when i thought i'll never live till tomorrow
I find myself picking up the pieces again
Because behind this glittering facade
you're nothing but some broken pieces of my life
Now, I cant get a hold of you
and maybe it's best to let go
Before you slam the breaks
And send my heart back into reverse.
So now the rain has stopped
And ive gotta admit,
we're finally done
yea, baby, it's true
we're finally through
Just wanna say, thanks for the memories
And now im fine without you
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i cant believe a jerk gave me an inspiration to write this song
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 2:04:00 PM
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yay! a retail theraphy on 21june07 with clare ! now, im going all out.
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actually, ive been thinking a lot lately. Ive always thought my life was complicated until i met you. yes,in other words a jerk. let's make that two. But, im kinda really fortunate to have people who really care for me. like over-time. So, nothing's going to bring me down now. Come on, jerks. try screwing this up.
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 9:12:00 AM
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This whole holiday thing is a such a nonsense. study caroline. STUDY!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 6:53:00 PM
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dammnit! when to check my o level chinese answers. SO MANY WRONG. really almost cried out. especially when i want to count it in. ugh! life huh. pfft. My teacher was like telling me so wasted. so pissed. i turn around and started saying shit like 10 times. couldnt say anything more. Little kids ard yanno? But val got my full reaction.
thanks bird, glenda and nic for the birthday present!
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 11:08:00 AM
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come to think of it, i think all of this is rather hilarious. haha!
yesterday is over
and today im fine without you.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 1:05:00 PM
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Thanks for promising me things you didnt keep
Thanks for acting like you cared
Thanks for making me fall every time i stand up
Thanks for betraying me
Thanks for lying to me
Thanks for saying those words you know will hurt me
Thanks for always blaming me
Thanks for apologising but never once learn from your mistakes
Thanks for always jumping into conclusions about me
Thanks for doubting me
Thanks for making me feel like everything
Thanks for making me feel like shit too
Thanks for showing me how you can never me trusted
ever againMost importantly,
Thanks for making me stronger.So dont come crying to me after a few days, apologising for all the shit you gave, making yourself sound pathetic, making me sound so damn mean. Cause, im doing fine without you.I'm way better off without you.
HANG UP THE PHONE. IVE GOT A BACKBONE STRONGER THAN YOURS.
Monday, June 04, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 9:33:00 PM
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JERKS OF THE CENTURY UNITE AND GET A LIFE
DONT YOU RECKON YOUR ACTIONS ARE EFFING ANNOYING?
SERIOUSLY! LIKE NOTHING BETTER TO DO ISIT? SCREW YOU. SCREW THE BOTH OF YOU BIG TIME!
HONESTLY, I HATE YOUR TINY PUNY GUTS! I HATE THE SHIT OUT OF YOU.
BL**DY PISSYFYING. YOU'RE SUCH A SCREWED UP JERK.
A REALLY HUGE OVERTIME JERK.
UGH! \
i'm done. Now, i feel better.
Friday, June 01, 2007
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 1:50:00 PM
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Im legal(: Legally 16 actually. And i finally went to check. The omen IS a NC 16 movie. which means.. i watched my first NC 16 movie before i turned 16! haha! okay. And i only realise it's NC 16 now. Haha.
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Yesterday was.. alrights. Fun, tiring, Pissing, Relieved.
Oh, but my birthday prsents aka ang bao money, was thrilling.hahas
Dad : $478 phone
mum: $ 100 ( suppose not to have any additional money but oh wells(: )
Grandaunt: $60
3rdaunt: $ 50
4thaunt: $500 ( yes. i didnt accidentally add a zero behind. lol )
and a additional allowance which i dont think i'll touch and $150 bucks for my 3 As.
And of course, thanks for all the birthday wishes!
Krystal, Tiffany, Val, Clement, Nic, Clare, Sa, Sis, Bro, Liwen, Mitch, Joyce, 2 cousins, Y.O, chel, Bird, Hao Meng, Sharron, Anne, Glenda, Jia li, Desmond, Li huang, Some guy i dunno, Val soo, Elite, Angela, Rachel.t ,theresse, Fraustine, Petrina, Rene, Alaine and Angelyn.
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Wake up really early for god knows why. Then went out to meet clare for shopping spree or you can say retail therapy. lol. In the end, i didnt buy anything! shocking. really. I guess i was too caught up with what was happening. Met clare at bugis, went to ms, Ate pizza hut. her present was so hilarious! i think of it i can already laugh to myself. lol. After that the 'game' started.
IT WAS SO DRAMA!! And i dont really wanna talk about it. Thank God for Hao Meng who made it so much better! If Y.O can be half as understanding as him, i should feel glad! pfft. Got kinda pissed off. I mean, if 4 guys keep msging you regarding the same thing, i think i wouldnt blame myself if i rather throw my handphone away. Really. Thank god my sweet sixteen got saved by Clare! took neos until we had to go. so i sent clare to the mrt station. Hugged her, thank her, turn around and a group of guys just stood infront of me. And one said hi. I almost got a shock since i was praying so hard they werent Y.O's friends. But the point was, i just walked away. haha! Then saw someone.eew.
Met my parents and cousins. Went for dinner. Sent Aunt off to Sydney which im starting to regret not following because.. I kinda really wanna see my sis and bro. Oh wells. And, to sum it all up, it was.. too drama. let's go for something simple next time.
THANKS EVERYONE(:
CAROLINE