alrights.clare and me decided to watch " The Omen" at 10.20am.so she reached bugis (easiest way to get.lol) at 9.37am while i was fashionably late.haha.but timing not so bad la.yupps.so we reached and then bought our tix.at last! i FINALLY convinced clare to watch.i was like so despo till i told her i'll pay for both the tix.if she's scared, we leave.even if it's halfway..and at last! "yes" haha!im so proud of her.haha.her first scary movie. (: serious.the night before, i sweared to stangle her.haha.oh wells.tix were bought.too late for turning back. so we just sat ard.talked about stuff and then we went in.i so cannot choose cinema seats! haha.the movie was damn freaking nice! haha.there were very lil ppl so the place was uber COLD! colder than ice cold! omg.lucky i had my bag on my lap.it kept me much warmer.but lt8,clare was freezing and she's super scared.like really.so she was like hugging on to my arm.squeezing it SO FREAKING TIGHTLY! i couldnt feel my arm no more.and plus.her hand was ICE COLD.so i lent her my bag to cover up her legs.so then i was freezing.but it was alrights i guess.even clare could feel me freezing up.but anyhow, we survived the movie.clare spent 90% of her time looking at the drinks to distract herself.and i spent 90% of the time explaining to her what she missed.lol! it was a sure great experience.lol.the show was nice.(: we had late lunch ( a miracle for clare) and did our stuff and all.had a great time.went broke again.oh wells.man, we're getting super close and im influencing her to my style for clothes,we were even mistaken for being twins in a shop.haha.we bought the same clothes same bag.man, that's cool.haha! time passed super fast,so had to go back too,since clare had uber early curfew.*baby said i should have told him about the cold-ness in the cinema so could send me a sweater! so sweet!! lol.thx.but nvm. (: yupps..so got home and when i was crossing the road,going hm.i seem to look out for cars for other ppl but myself.i took one step.and then i saw the car speeding towards me and i stepped back.and then i look again,no cars.and i took 3 steps.this time, i was one sec close to getting knock down by the speeding motocycle.and i din even see that coming.if he din horn at me.agh.you know how much i hate this feeling.like i want to take that step across the road but so many things just start stopping me from doing so? it's just across the road, to the other side.it made me just totally reflect on us.
*: im not giving up on US.cos if i do,then im no different from the both of them.and seeing you wanting to give up is SUCH AN INSPIRATION for me to keep this hanging.what i really needed was you to help me pull us together.and the last thing i wanted was to see you give up infront of my very own freaking eyes no matter how much u dont want to.i dont want to walk this path alone okay.so im sorry if i wasnt really helping much in the first place.i tried, like how i believed you tried.but believe it or not, up to you.whatever's going to happen to the 4 of us,i have no say in this at all.and neither do you.so you should really stop thinking it's your fault..and the best part is if you start to clump all your troubles together, it's going to be like a stairway to heaven.even the most perfect person faces problems..so can you please try to change this "problem" with the 4 of us to a challenge for the both of us.if im willing to take this,i dont see why you shld hesitate.i did mention i wasnt hurt with what you said.but i need you to know that that is NOT because i dont give a damn to this.it's cause i know you meant it well for us.but this is how it just goes on and on.the circle of misunderstandings.first you said " get la" and "yeah" wasnt some good advice they gave you.yeah if you look at it that way, of course it's shit advice.but ever look on the other side of the field that maybe all they or she tried to do was to spur you on and give you a lil confidence in yourself.girl, if you look at in one side, u have got to look at it the other side.the world is ROUND not square.alrights? so just give US and yourself one more chance. <3 -i believe we can have it good if we want to.
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
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Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist
And directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question,But a lesson learned in time
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So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
CAROLINE