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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 7:53:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

i just unbanned myself from the computer for 30 mins.to do physics project.need to do the write up.darl was online! (: totally brighten my day.alrights.so we chat and as usual the outcome will be from 30 mins, 1 hr, 1 half hr.and this time.is NO EXCEPTION.haha.it just struck me at 6.55 that i haven done my physics.so rushed here. darl told me someone pranked call him 3 times.so pissed with that idiot person.and better not be someone i know!! you wont like to face me after that.one more time that person is gonna hear from me.insignificant living dummies like you just ruin people's day! oh wells.i hope she stops! and then.the best thing happened.darl did my physics write up!! oh my gosh.thank you so much!!!! haha.i just got started and you're done with it!! thanks so so much!!! so i'll be online until 8.30pm =( not given much of a choice.hate to go.ugh.knew this will happen.

Monday, April 24, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 2:44:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

alrights.exams are THIS WEEK. stress =x. i so cannot fail anything.let alone i have tons of hw to do! and a project due on wed which i clearly haven started! =\ as from today. 3.00, im banning myself from the computer.until after exams.so i wont be in friendster or blogging. that is sad.but anyways.im gonna be off in 15 mins.
BANNED FROM THE COMPUTER! *i hope this will last.haha.

Sunday, April 23, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 6:50:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

today's church service was WOOT! haha.everything totally rock! it was seriously one of the most meaningful service i have ever went to considering that i haven actually attended church since God knows when. (: alrights. although chewy and i felt kinda out of place today but i totally love everything else! i want hillsongs cds.borrow borrow? anyone? glenda?! tiffany!? nic?! anyone! haha. i have seriously never heard it in a more meaningful way then today! i love the entire 2hrs 21 mins.haha.and today's session was on " keep your underwear on" so we watch this clip and it was comical yet so much truth hidden in it.i would watch the whole thing again and laugh like i mean it again! haha. it's seriously great!! loved it.and i know nic and glenda will come running to me as soon as they see this entry and say " see i told ya!" haha.come on.bring it on. lol. thanks nic! i owe you one.most imptly i got to pay him back the 50 bucks! can you imagine owing someone that among of money?! thanks to you guys la.make me super paiseh! 50 bucks la.ppl's asking me what i spend on with that.and you dont want to help me pay him.i dont get to see him so often like you do you know.and I dun "knock" into him that often on the street as others do.you smart girl! but anw,it's a load off my mind now. church was totally one a plus side today! ((:

Friday, April 21, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 2:57:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

i can really laugh at people who actually repost bulletins that are chain letters on friendster! it's like super stupid and yet super funny.i think it just shows who believes in such lame stuff and are actually scared of it! i mean.if this kinda stuff really happens, i'll probably be died by now.trust me.haha
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alrights.that post was super random.
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hey babe, im so so so happy that FINALLY for what seemed like years, i've talked to you again! FINALLY! i really miss ya lots.like really.i guessed all along i just needed to pull you back into my life instead of letting you slip away.and i've done it! (:
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tomorrow's bird's bday.and anne and me got her this something something.got 3 ppl to thank BIG TIME.anne-for chipping in with me.although you still owe me tons of mula.lol.sa, for helping me give it to you know who.take care alrights.dont fall sick now! and of course my WONDERFUL daughter.gesh!i swear she makes me say that! yeah.it was super funny the present i mean.you guys can picture your presents from me! =]

Thursday, April 20, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 4:12:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

i got my progress card! yay me yay me.go me go me!! i failed ONE!! oh my freaking gosh.super happy! alrights.this is HOW bad i needed to pass! and that stupid fail was like 5/25 for coordinate geometry! haha.Oh wells! i failed one only.but not a really good time to be happy about it while everyone is like moaning because of it. anw.i really dunno whether that was good or bad-the failing only one thing. seriously.i duno.i asked whether it was good and the only reply i got was "YAH!" seriously.no one really understands why i hated that ans.except clare.and i dont wanna talk about it.it sounds insane.yes i know.hoping i'll fail more is like really weird.but i guess in the long run, i just want that tiny happiness i needed for SCHOOL! i shall drop it.talking about it really can bring back all the emotions i had ytd. and im not gonna break down infront of that fucking cher! i swear.IM NOT GOING TO CRY INFRONT OF HER. whatever it takes.
fcuk it all. fcuk everything that you stand for.dont accept your blood boiling pains you drop onto us like a bomb.dont ever judge us!
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but i'll be fine.at least im not the only one in this.for once.sadness, BYE BYE.
but i learnt that, you cannot make everyone happy. Happiness is meant to be shared, given and earned, not begged, borrowed or stolen from.
when i look into the mirror,for a moment, i could not recognise that girl inside the mirror, my own reflection somehow seemed distorted, distantly familiar but only intangibly so. and then my mum calls for me, and the moment is gone.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 3:22:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

is there anyone that fails
is there anyone that falls
am i the only one in church today feeling's so small
cause when i take a look around
everybody seems so strong
i know they'll soon discover
that i dont belong
so i tuck it all away, like everything's okay
if i make them all believe it, maybe i'll believe it too
so with a painted grin, i play the heart again
so everyone will see me the way that i see them
are we happy plastic people
under shiny plastic steeples
with walls around our weakness
and smiles to hide our pain
but if the invitation's open
to every heart that has been broken
maybe then we close the curtain
on our stained glass masquerade
is there anyone who's been there
are there any hands to raise
am i the only one who's traded
in the altar for a stage
the performance is convincing
and we know every line by heart
only when no one is watching
can we really fall apart
but would it set me free
if i dared to let you see
the truth behind the person
that u imagine me to be
would your arms be open
or would you walk away
would the love of jesus
be enough to make you stay
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i wanna give you a really really big warm hug!!! im feeling so much better today! still sick but much much better! thank you so so much!!! <3
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anne, you'll be fine.dont get upset whereever god puts you in yea! dont listern to what other people think you should do.you know yourself best! babe! you got all the lucks from me yea!

Monday, April 17, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 6:24:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

im dying every minute today! sick sick sick sick sick! =[ super pathetic can! i feel like just DYING! wanna skip school tomorrow.but i need a freaking mc.i shld really start trying to forge one. (: ugh. im getting sicker by the minute.and i dun have a tempt.i dunno if that's a good or bad thing. shucks.i cannot fall sick now.i'll just lag further.i need to get well by tomorrow.reason? i need to do well for my ss test which i stupidily dinn noe it was open book.i need to get back on track and i must must must must stop making darl worry for me!!! =( sorry! i'll be recovering asap! <3

Sunday, April 16, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 3:02:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

maybe i shouldnt even care at all.

Saturday, April 15, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 3:33:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

im back from my lala land, my head hasnt.sentosa really improved lots.just that it wasnt all that good. =] first day.ha.got there like what? 10 plus? just hang around.then second day, woke up freaking early.7am.went out to get breakfast.then went back and waited for the rest to get their butts up.decided to play pool.ah.pool was great.as usual.after that went back to the room.the super lazy ones like me got back into the room.i blasted the tv cos it was playing nice music.didnt want to go out for lunch lah.was super lazy.was kinda hungry though.just pure lazy-ness. then darl wanted to sent me food.super sweet.but the rain wasnt helping.so yeah.in the end, decided to go harbour front there.kinda walked in the rain a lil.was drenched.and then waitied for the mall's air con to dry me.i was freezing.but hey, guess what? i decided to get cold milo.and seriously i almost fronzed to death.darl was hoping to get me a jacket! <3<3<3 i blame it all on the rain.i was having sore throat by then.got back and i got even more wet.was at the beach.and then yah.my cousin was out to get me wet.dinner was at sakae sushi.gosh.i could have decent food for ONCE that day.(: sushi is good.ahaha.anw.so today's today.dun feel good.dun feel good at all.im not sick though.i just feel sick. =( and it's starting to get on my nerves. im going to tuition later! double sad-ness. i only hang out with my friends there.nothing gets into my head.like seriously.ugh.i figured, this year's gonna be a tough year ahead.it feel likes im in school for 8 months.and it's just 4! kill me!

Thursday, April 13, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 2:58:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

alrights.homework homework again.piled up with it. hols are no more hols.and mrs boo came to our class telling us like we relle gotta do better yada yada yada.whenever u pass by her it's always " go study for chemistry!!".ah wells.eng while everyone was doing this letter thingy.i did finish.then i just fell asleep on my table.and lopez not happy.
lopez: caroline! have you done your work yet? are u done already?
me: yah..
lopez: show it to me
so i dragged myself all the way up to her table.
lopez: are u suppose to tuck out ur blouse that much?
me: yah
lopez: are u sure?
me: yah
lopez: are u suppose to wear ur blouse like that?
me:yah
lopez: are u suppose to tuck ur blouse out until like that? is this how u wear ur blouse?
me:yah.to wear a blouse, we are suppose to tuck it in THEN tuck it back out.
and she dun believe that i shld tuck it out this much.so she look around.couldnt find any nerd prefects who tuck in so much.so she just said
lopez: tuck it back in again.or make it shorter
by then.i was shaking my head.purlease.even chrystal says it looks nerd! no one tucks in until so IN.i mean.get a life la.then she not happy ah..go on correcting my mistake on my paper.when i went back, i just totally fell back asleep..haha..no surprise why i suck at eng right..gosh.everyone is getting back on track except me.no one said sec 3 was easy! and stupid school dun give us a choice whether we wanna take triple science or not.bloody shit.who in their right mind would wanna come into 3 science class!!! i wun even think of stepping into 3/7.now, im officially stuck there..last period was chi.we totally pissed cher off!!! like totally!!!! haha.she's like scolding and we're like talking.she give back papers, we're laughing among ourselves.when shee teach, we're stoning.so we was pissed.and no matter how much she scolded us, none was affected. communication is all it takes.she din get it.too bad.and she's totally unfair in marking papers! it's like whether long, short, got meaning, no meaning.all same marks! wad the fuck! and she gave ppl like 10/50 cos she thinks that they copy with some other person.like how the hell do u know.how many reasons can u come up with for an arguement? and michelle got 0/50 .cos cher dun believe is she do one!!like where are her eyes la.80% were like wtf wtf.then she dinn let us off.had to do 2 more pages.then hc lend us her book to copy.then bird and i copy halfway she dun allow us to copy.infront of her.we just continued asking hc what are the ans.when were were done, we just left the book on her table and left.unreasonable.
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give me a chance to make the wrongs right.will you? girl, just let me try.
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thanks anne for aft sch thing.at least u were there.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 7:03:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

phyics is fcuked up.screwed up.hate it hate it hate it.ugh. i know.what a comment cos physics is like the easiest out of the three science.but i just dun get it lah.no wait.i do.i just dunno how to apply the freaking formulas.and i dun give a shit why someone falls when the person wanna get off the bus. I DUN GIVE A SHIT.alrights. i mean.this is what i told darl last night when i was so pissed with it.
my 100% sure CORRECT ans: fall means fall. i dun care if the person falls.i mean, accidents DO happen inlife.if none has happen in ur life.i shall do ur accident!i will ask the person why she falls when i see her fall.but im not that kpo.
see! my fab ans right.but whatever it is, im gonna fail it.flunk it. flunk it like CRAP! :(( exams are 2 weeks to go.my progress, nil. i hate myself sometimes. ugh.
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go anne! u got my 100% support in pfa council.sure can do it! for me, im giving it a miss this time.cos i know im gonna end up trying to pon it.why make my life and other's miserable right. thanks for helping me out in this!

Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 6:27:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

oh my freaking god.i actually pass CHEMISTRY! hahaha.big motivation for physics tomorrow.i need all the common sense i can find!!! :( but chpts are kinda easy. 4and 5 only.exams are like chpts one to seven.have you seen my textbook?! ugh.irritating to see , read and learn. so freaking saddening.
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phone call with darl last night was FAB! stress-relieve! haha.and talking to his neighbour,can FAINT! talk to the both of them, can die in one way or another.trust me. :) <3

Monday, April 10, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 2:58:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

RECEIVED cookies from darl! <3<3<3

haha.alrights.sat went to tuiton as usual.this time, darl was popping by to drop me cookies.super sweet! lol.so yeah.my friend asked for the both of us to go to the ladies.then went out and looked for darl. at last. saw darl at the escalator.got my cookies that were baked personally!!! oh my.i fell head over heels with it.lol!and then i relle had to go and pretend i went to the ladies.so i went off.forgot and turn to the corner.cher was there! then we ran all the way to ladies.i admit i was loud.haha! (: ah wells.darl bought me food too.incase i was hungry.and i was.i so was! one thing i regretted, leaving too soon.should have stayed to talk a lil more before going in to do comprehension! YUCKS. but my friend was like feeling awkward so just left. then went in to boredom.i almost died there.pls.
p.s my friend says u're cute to reply my saying of HOT! haha!

Saturday, April 08, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 9:27:00 AM | 0 Noticed Me

phew.ytd was tiring.lopez change our seats again.so now it's 2,3,3.there goes van and chewy! :( ah wells.sa still talk-able dist.and funnily.lopez happily go put me in third row.i swear ah.she is gonna regret it! i'll make her regret it.if i fail, THEN i'll give up. freakish women.alrights.enough.then after school, anne and me decided to walk to bedok reservoir.YAYness for the both of us.first we got direction.bus and all.typical me, TAXI PLS! haha.but then we decided to walk.but we got all different routes by diff ppl.then we just followed her way.which anne knows too.well, kinda.so yeah.walk and walk and walk.sweating like mad!!! kinda a long walk. then went under brigdes, over bridges.finally.a two way path came along. crap.then i saw a sign.so left it was.then came another one.then finally we saw some of our girls.so then we realised it was actually 3 paths to choose.and karnt go st8 cos then we karnt cross over.so up the narrow road.and FINALLY.reached.haha.mad that was good exercise.went to bedok int.talk a lot.anne has my lil secret, i got hers! so damn it.i cant say hers or i'll get killed.ah wells.went for tuiiton later.anne was following a sleep already.i was stoning a lil more.
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maybe things just wasnt right anymore.so ive decided to make the first step this time.i'm gonna change things around me once and for all.no more regrets no more tears. yeah that's it.anne's choices : happy life or sad life.i made a choice for happy life.im sticking to it.

Thursday, April 06, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 5:08:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

LOPEZ SUCKS! lopez sucks like fcuk.she totally screw everything up la pur-lease.EVERTYHING! ugh.so pissing offing us. argh..troublesome troublesome.YADA YADA YADA. look who's calling us troublesome! geshh. today was totally down la.not my day.so NOT my day.
and last nite.super best! okay.i was going back home from my grandparents' hse.then i had 2 bags with me.so my dad kindly go help.so he took one.and then i followed him behind.then after that i bend down to get the sling bag off me.then i went foward to put the bag into the car booth where he put the bag he took from me.then he freakishly dinn see me there.then he slam the car booth! and there goes my head!!!!!!!!!!!!! OUCH! the car booth slam right on my head.damn freaking pain! and i just screamed like a bimbo when the thing slammed down.typical reaction of me.so yeah..then rubbing it like hell.then my mum gave me ice.and then my whole head was numb with the pain i couldnt find the spot where the car booth slammed on my head.so i felt here and there.and i anyhow la.took the ice and place there.for 30 mins.i was like thinking.whoa.the ice works like miracle can! and then i was touching my head then i hit one part of it.and it was damn freaking pain.and THERE was where i was hit.so smart right.so i change to position where i put the ice.haha.so sue me.my head was numb.but by then, no use putting ice.cos it kinda swell up that part already.ice cant bring it down.so my mum gave me some medicine thing to put on my head..and that got darl worrying.funny part.i was worrying darl worrying me.so in the end it was just a circle of " worry-ness" lol.ah wells.there goes my head.but know what? i hope i can have more common sense aft that knock.
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tiffany is a SUPER smart girl.she took my chem book to foto copy.all my notes.then she smart, never return me.so i just ended my call with her.i have like more than 5 pages filled with chem notes.while here i am, blogging.i can so waste time.and i still got some pile of hw.stressed!- :(

Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 7:10:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

today was freaking NICE.haha.i dunno.maybe cos i just sorta know i wun be flunking the three tests i had today.ytd i actually studied for bio.kinda gave up half way.so turn to maths.im 80% sure i'll pass! which is like YAYNESS! and thanks to darl.although i still dinn had the confidence you had in me.uber sweet! then at nite.i fell asleep half way while studying for history.the surprising part was that it was only 9 plus!then was woken up by darl's sms.gosh.lucky i had that sms.so read the text a bit.and seriously.i absorbed A LOT of facts.well.at least to get a pass.and i PASSED! yeah baby! i passed.THANKING GOD EVERY FREAKING MINUTE.but cher a bit stupid la.turn her back to the board.and bird and me so happily compared our answers and all.ohoh.and bio test.dinn get to sit at my place.cos cher dun want me near bird.wth la..i was asked to sit next to becky which is only one seat away..freakish idea.the test i totally kinda screwed up.the qn given, i changed the qn to an answer.rubbish.i know.and funnily, becky was trying to copy one of my answers.so so glad she dinn get to see it.cos that was the qn i totally just rephrease the qn to an answer! haha.ah wells.im praying.hard.very hard.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Carolinechantel Yap posted at 3:05:00 PM | 0 Noticed Me

picture this :
you're given a rabbit.it is knocked out by some chemicals.not dead ah. okay.each one is givne one rabbit.the cher ask you to wear your gloves.then the cher gives you a pair of scissors and you're asked to cut the rabbit vertically upwards.until the chest.after that you're suppose to rip the two parts apart.and then you'll see the insides of the rabbit.heart still beating.it's not dead.then u're asked to rip all the organs out.so now, the rabbit if "emptied". soak the rabbit in hot water.go make rabbit stew if u want.lol.then get rid of all the skin and fur and then put the bones into some solution and it turns white.go picture that.
im so so glad that bones and rabbits are OUT of the syllabus! thank GOD.
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test test test!
more test=more flunking
ugh.exams are so so freakish near and i am STILL slacking.just cant get serious with my work la.it all depends on the mood.gosh.that is bad.i freaking NEED to settle down to study.tomorrow i have 3 freaking tests to fail.better go do some preparing for that!

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